October 27, 2007

Finding out that day at the hospital that Kaycee was coming early was quite the shock. She was on her way and there was no stopping it. It turns out, I was sick and that caused my labor. 4 months too early. The day she was due was estimated to be February 27, 2007...October 27, 2007 she made her appearance into this world…but, she was too young and small to survive.

Knowing that I would give birth and Kaycee not having a chance to make it - broke my heart. I don’t know that my heart ever will mend completely. Kaycee was born at 11:11pm. Have you heard, the saying: “It’s 11:11 - make a wish!” How ironic - my wish came to me at that particular time.

Holding her in my hands - feeling her little arms and legs, counting her fingers and checking out her toes - I had wished I would never have to let her go. I wanted to keep her forever.
I will always keep her with me and I know she is always with me - The Best and Beautiful Things are Felt with the Heart - I feel her everyday.

Kaycee’s birthday approaches rather quickly…she would have been 1 year old.

Happy Birthday baby girl.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Day

It's been some time since I was here last...I need to change that.

So today, October 15th is the day we remember those little ones that we have lost. I will be lighting a candle at 7pm in rememberance of my little girl Kaycee and the other babies that we have lost.

http://www.october15th.com/

I even bought a special candle (not really anything special - just a Glade candle I picked up and haven't burned yet.) that I will light. I am saving the candle my friend Sara gave to light on Kaycee's birthday. How ironic that she was born in October - The month that is considered: Pregnancy and Infant Loss month.

I miss you baby girl.