The Best and Most Beautiful Things

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. A quote by Hellen Keller.

How true this is...My daughter is beautiful and I am not able to touch her or see her...I can only touch her and see her in pictures and in my memories.

The day I found out I was pregnant - I was over the moon. I knew I was pregnant before testing...I just knew it in my heart. And I also that this baby was a girl. My mind, immediately was racing with all kinds of plans for the future!! I was excited and so was Allen. We were going to be parents to a "human"! We are already parents to 2 beautiful girls: Penny (Golden Retriever) and Matilda (English Bulldog). Allen couldn't wait to share the news with everyone, he wanted to shout it from the roof tops! I was a bit reserved, but just as excited.

We found out on Father's Day 2007 - that is when I got my first faint result on a Wal-Mart cheap pregnancy test. I tested a couple of days later with a digital and it gave us the clear answer.

I walked on air for days, hell months! I so happy with life and how things were going for us! We made plans for names for a boy or girl...but, I knew in my heart even at 5 weeks pregnant that I was carrying a girl. I looked at baby clothes, I looked at strollers, bedding, cribs, etc! I am big planner so, I was really excited about of this baby planning! I looked forward to the days ahead of us - I was such a happy person!

October 3, 2007: We had our big ultrasound! Allen, my mom and his mom all went with me to the appt. We saw that the baby was indeed a girl! My thoughts: I get to name her Kaycee!!!! I could have cried! I named my daughter after my grandfather. His name is Kit Carson, and he went by K.C. for short. My heart swelled. My little girl. Kaycee.